The Hardest Day
The Hardest Day
This forum seems to be about writing that you're going to run X time or kms, and then reporting back that you actually did run x. Today will be the hardest day to say or do anything, even get out of bed, but when nothing else makes sense, maybe committing to a 2km run with my husband, Ian (Guppy) will add some meaning to this horrible day.
On Tuesday, our beautiful, energetic, snuggly 7-year-old son, Porter, fell through the ice in Lake Ontario, and we lost him. No words can describe the emptiness and aching longing that I feel, to know that he won't be able to join me for a quick kilometer of my warm up anymore, that he won't climb into bed each morning to hug-me-awake, and he won't be in his first kids triathlon this June, that he was so excited about.
So I'm now going to get out of bed, try to eat something, put on my running shoes, and try to keep the crying under control while I slowly run though Niagara. I feel like I might just sink into the ground and die at this point. I will report back when I finish it. Thank you for listening.
Deanna
On Tuesday, our beautiful, energetic, snuggly 7-year-old son, Porter, fell through the ice in Lake Ontario, and we lost him. No words can describe the emptiness and aching longing that I feel, to know that he won't be able to join me for a quick kilometer of my warm up anymore, that he won't climb into bed each morning to hug-me-awake, and he won't be in his first kids triathlon this June, that he was so excited about.
So I'm now going to get out of bed, try to eat something, put on my running shoes, and try to keep the crying under control while I slowly run though Niagara. I feel like I might just sink into the ground and die at this point. I will report back when I finish it. Thank you for listening.
Deanna
Deanna
Running in memory of Porter.
"Make voyages. Attempt them. There's nothing else."
2012
Chilly Half Mar 4th - 2:03:33
Around The Bay Mar 25 - 3:10:19 - PB (de facto, but still!)
NF Womens Half June 4 - 1:59:00 - PB!
Portland Half Oct 7 - 1:59:15
Gorilla Run - 17k - DONE
ING NYC Marathon Nov 4 -- DNS, care of Hurricane Sandy
Philly Marathon Nov 18 -- 5:03:40 -- but completed!
2013
Miami Half 2:24
Chilly Half 2:24
Running in memory of Porter.
"Make voyages. Attempt them. There's nothing else."
2012
Chilly Half Mar 4th - 2:03:33
Around The Bay Mar 25 - 3:10:19 - PB (de facto, but still!)
NF Womens Half June 4 - 1:59:00 - PB!
Portland Half Oct 7 - 1:59:15
Gorilla Run - 17k - DONE
ING NYC Marathon Nov 4 -- DNS, care of Hurricane Sandy
Philly Marathon Nov 18 -- 5:03:40 -- but completed!
2013
Miami Half 2:24
Chilly Half 2:24
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OMG. Words fail me. I can only offer hugs.
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Oh Deanna, I'm so, so sorry.
((Hugs))
((Hugs))
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Love, like I'm on borrowed time
It's good to be alive, yeah....Jason Gray
Running is a conversation with your body. Sometimes you listen and sometimes you tell it to stop whining and do something. - Ian
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OMG! Deanna, I'm at a loss for words as well. I am so sorry to read this.
Life is short. Stop whining!!- Jwolf
The Hardest Day
I am so, so, so sorry to read this awful news. All of RM is behind you in this terrible time. I am sending you my best orange vibes to help you through this day. Hugs
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Deanna - There are no words, but my thoughts are with your family during this time.
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Oh Deanna, I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine what kind of day this is for you. I have a 7-year old daughter, and if I lost her I would be inconsolable. I will think of you and Ian, and Porter on my run today. Take care of yourselves.
James
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OMG. I am so so sorry to read this new. I'm sorry, I am at a loss for words as I am sure nothing will be comforting at this time. Sending out orange vibes and hugs to you and your husband. Take care.
Sandra
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I'm so sorry to hear this Deanna. You're right that no words really fit now. Cry as much as you need to, feel every pain and emotion.
I will send you a pm later.
I will send you a pm later.
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I am so sorry to read this. Please report back. After your run or when you feel you need to.
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There are no words to express how sorry I am to read this.
My thoughts are with you and your husband and the rest of your family.
My thoughts are with you and your husband and the rest of your family.
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i'm so so sorry to read this.
I can't say anything else. big big hugs to you and your husband.
I can't say anything else. big big hugs to you and your husband.
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Words do fail, indeed. I read this with shock and am so very sorry. Thank you for turning here and sharing with us, and do report back when you are able.
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Yes - words fail.
I hope you and Ian find the strength to carry on.
My very sincerest condolences.
Hugs.
Lisa
I hope you and Ian find the strength to carry on.
My very sincerest condolences.
Hugs.
Lisa
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GoodLife Half Marathon.
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Deanna I am so very very sorry for your loss. As everyone has said, words fail. All I can offer is hugs and please you and Ian take care of yourselves.
Thoughts and prayers are with you.
Thoughts and prayers are with you.
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Wow, I'm so sorry. I don't even want to imagine what you are going through.
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"I just hope that people look at it and say, 'Hey if this yahoo can do it, then I can do it too.' That'd be cool if people thought that. It's just a matter of putting the miles in and working. It's not so much how much talent you have. I hope." - Brian Sell.
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Deanna there are truly no words. I am so very sorry for your loss and will keep you all in my thoughts during this difficult time. My deepest condolences.
Robin
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I am in tears reading your post. So very, very sad for you.
You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.
You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.
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I am speechless...
My most sincere condolences. It is unimaginable what you must be going through. My thoughts are with you and your family. Take care of yourself.
My most sincere condolences. It is unimaginable what you must be going through. My thoughts are with you and your family. Take care of yourself.
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It is hard to know what to say. Very sorry for you and yours.
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This broken wing will fly again
One fine day
This blackbird's mute gonna sing again
One fine day
So all you sinners come out
And all you drunkards crawl out
Come into the light of one fine day
This broken wing will fly again
One fine day
This blackbird's mute gonna sing again
One fine day
So all you sinners come out
And all you drunkards crawl out
Come into the light of one fine day
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I am so so sorry You are in my thoughts and prayers.
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I'm sitting in my office in tears as I read this- I'm so sorry for your loss.
My thoughts and prayers will be with you and your family. I wish there was more I could say......
My thoughts and prayers will be with you and your family. I wish there was more I could say......
Keep on rolling, just a mile to go. Keep on rolling my old buddy, you're moving much too slow.
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Oh Deanna I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you and your family can find the strength you need in this unfathomably difficult time.
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5th Sep 2015 - Run Ottawa free 5km - 21:05
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16th Apr 2016 - MEC 10 miler - 1:20:21
12th Apr 2015 - EY R4R Half Marathon - 1:41:15
26th May 2013 - Ottawa Marathon - 3:43:51
2017 races - coming up
7th May - Defi Entreprise 10km
28th May - Ottawa Half Marathon
17th Sep - Army Run Half Marathon
5th Sep 2015 - Run Ottawa free 5km - 21:05
21st Jun 2015 - UR 4 Men's Cancers 10km - 45:45
16th Jun 2013 - UR 4 Men's Cancers 15km - 1:11:44
16th Apr 2016 - MEC 10 miler - 1:20:21
12th Apr 2015 - EY R4R Half Marathon - 1:41:15
26th May 2013 - Ottawa Marathon - 3:43:51
2017 races - coming up
7th May - Defi Entreprise 10km
28th May - Ottawa Half Marathon
17th Sep - Army Run Half Marathon
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