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The Hardest Day

Postby DLS » Thu Jan 06, 2011 9:43 am

This forum seems to be about writing that you're going to run X time or kms, and then reporting back that you actually did run x. Today will be the hardest day to say or do anything, even get out of bed, but when nothing else makes sense, maybe committing to a 2km run with my husband, Ian (Guppy) will add some meaning to this horrible day.

On Tuesday, our beautiful, energetic, snuggly 7-year-old son, Porter, fell through the ice in Lake Ontario, and we lost him. No words can describe the emptiness and aching longing that I feel, to know that he won't be able to join me for a quick kilometer of my warm up anymore, that he won't climb into bed each morning to hug-me-awake, and he won't be in his first kids triathlon this June, that he was so excited about.

So I'm now going to get out of bed, try to eat something, put on my running shoes, and try to keep the crying under control while I slowly run though Niagara. I feel like I might just sink into the ground and die at this point. I will report back when I finish it. Thank you for listening.

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Re: The Hardest Day

Postby La » Thu Jan 06, 2011 9:46 am

OMG. Words fail me. I can only offer hugs.
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Re: The Hardest Day

Postby Habs4ever » Thu Jan 06, 2011 9:54 am

Oh Deanna, I'm so, so sorry.
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Re: The Hardest Day

Postby RA. » Thu Jan 06, 2011 9:55 am

OMG! Deanna, I'm at a loss for words as well. I am so sorry to read this.
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The Hardest Day

Postby Kelodie » Thu Jan 06, 2011 9:55 am

I am so, so, so sorry to read this awful news. All of RM is behind you in this terrible time. I am sending you my best orange vibes to help you through this day. Hugs
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Re: The Hardest Day

Postby scrumhalfgirl » Thu Jan 06, 2011 9:56 am

Deanna - There are no words, but my thoughts are with your family during this time.
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Re: The Hardest Day

Postby BaldGuy » Thu Jan 06, 2011 9:58 am

Oh Deanna, I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine what kind of day this is for you. I have a 7-year old daughter, and if I lost her I would be inconsolable. I will think of you and Ian, and Porter on my run today. Take care of yourselves.

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Re: The Hardest Day

Postby Sandra » Thu Jan 06, 2011 10:01 am

OMG. I am so so sorry to read this new. I'm sorry, I am at a loss for words as I am sure nothing will be comforting at this time. Sending out orange vibes and hugs to you and your husband. Take care. :(
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Re: The Hardest Day

Postby Jwolf » Thu Jan 06, 2011 10:06 am

I'm so sorry to hear this Deanna. You're right that no words really fit now. Cry as much as you need to, feel every pain and emotion.

I will send you a pm later.
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Re: The Hardest Day

Postby BJH » Thu Jan 06, 2011 10:06 am

I am so sorry to read this. Please report back. After your run or when you feel you need to.
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Re: The Hardest Day

Postby eme » Thu Jan 06, 2011 10:08 am

There are no words to express how sorry I am to read this.

My thoughts are with you and your husband and the rest of your family.

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Re: The Hardest Day

Postby Engmomma » Thu Jan 06, 2011 10:10 am

:(

I am speechless. So sorry for your loss.
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Re: The Hardest Day

Postby CinC » Thu Jan 06, 2011 10:10 am

i'm so so sorry to read this.

I can't say anything else. big big hugs to you and your husband.
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Re: The Hardest Day

Postby bruyere » Thu Jan 06, 2011 10:11 am

Words do fail, indeed. I read this with shock and am so very sorry. Thank you for turning here and sharing with us, and do report back when you are able.
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Re: The Hardest Day

Postby purdy65 » Thu Jan 06, 2011 10:17 am

Yes - words fail. :(

I hope you and Ian find the strength to carry on.

My very sincerest condolences.

Hugs.

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Re: The Hardest Day

Postby abhainn » Thu Jan 06, 2011 10:17 am

Deanna I am so very very sorry for your loss. As everyone has said, words fail. All I can offer is hugs and please you and Ian take care of yourselves.

Thoughts and prayers are with you.
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Re: The Hardest Day

Postby Robbie-T » Thu Jan 06, 2011 10:22 am

Wow, I'm so sorry. I don't even want to imagine what you are going through.
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Re: The Hardest Day

Postby Spirit Unleashed » Thu Jan 06, 2011 10:22 am

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Re: The Hardest Day

Postby Robinandamelia » Thu Jan 06, 2011 10:23 am

Deanna there are truly no words. I am so very sorry for your loss and will keep you all in my thoughts during this difficult time. My deepest condolences.

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Re: The Hardest Day

Postby deerdree » Thu Jan 06, 2011 10:23 am

I am in tears reading your post. So very, very sad for you.

You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

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Re: The Hardest Day

Postby UltraQueenga » Thu Jan 06, 2011 10:32 am

I am speechless...
My most sincere condolences. It is unimaginable what you must be going through. My thoughts are with you and your family. Take care of yourself.
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Re: The Hardest Day

Postby Doonst » Thu Jan 06, 2011 10:34 am

It is hard to know what to say. Very sorry for you and yours.
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Re: The Hardest Day

Postby gnu » Thu Jan 06, 2011 10:36 am

I am so so sorry :( You are in my thoughts and prayers.

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Re: The Hardest Day

Postby erinmcd » Thu Jan 06, 2011 10:39 am

I'm sitting in my office in tears as I read this- I'm so sorry for your loss.
My thoughts and prayers will be with you and your family. I wish there was more I could say......
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Re: The Hardest Day

Postby mas_runner » Thu Jan 06, 2011 10:41 am

Oh Deanna I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you and your family can find the strength you need in this unfathomably difficult time.
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